tired of being alienated
instead of appreciated
tired of being berated
instead of belonging.
tired of being barely tolerated
instead of celebrated.
and i cant stand the hurt and sting of the rejection
that much longer.
they wonder why you have ptsd?
everytime i trust anyone
they always abandon me
i feel like a kid that has been sluffed through the system
one rejection after another in way of treatment
left side lined and alone regardless of the trust i show
and the effort i put forth
to work with them
they reject and judge me for the exact reasons
i seek their help.
figure there is no help anyways
maybe if i looked a different way that solicited their sympathy or played into the patriarchal notion of a damsel in distress they might respond differently?
so sick of being mistreated, untreated
left to rot on the side lines or die off
no one giving the slightest of damns.