try something totally new

i feel sad today i am so tired of the dismissive annoyed disrespectful attitude that people have with me. They think that if they allow me to participate, they are being kind some how. No actually you are simply permitting me my basic civil...

soggy ass shoes

It is so dark in here it looks like night time.... nothing more dreary and depressing than fall rain. SO! where to recap.... what to recap i went to see about a kitten i met her when i was cleaning at the box store for the humane society ;...

never dawned on me to mind

Honestly in losing Esmeralda and my mom really in one fall swoop this summer It has been like a wrecking ball of reality has hit me between the eyes rattling my head with no mercy. It never dawned on me before to mind how alone i was or am in...

revocation

morning so i ran on my treadmill and my mom has been texting me like an asshole since like 830 am yet she would have my head in a vice if i did the same to her. she has one set of rules for her and another for me like im her subordinate ...

alone

I cant stand the loneliness anymore. seriously i dont think i can do this much longer.... i miss my esmeralda like there are no words to describe. it is like the entire bottom of my little world has crashed out and vanished. i feel lost...

do over

My sadness and grief cannot bear it for missing my Ezzy girl. and the fall is always naturally hard on my spirit to begin with fills me with melancholy and sadness the time of year my mom left my dad and we left the farm for good never...

Ezzy girl

For the first time since you passed i unabashedly bawled my eyes out last night until i fell asleep.   I had a dream about Savoy Howe. and she was tethered in a chair. she couldnt move her arms hands legs she was consious and eyes...

legacy of love

Not feeling well today wasnt feeling very well yesterday either to tell you the truth went to the gym and didnt do much extravagent just a basic work out but when i came home i was tanked full out i fell asleep in the afternoon and was in...