anything

Feeling wore down by injustice. Feeling immensely suicidal. Dunno if I should do the other animal program or just move far away.... And never try again for anything.

grand

Seriously feeling like my life is over with this final decision where my schooling is concerned. im pretty flattened and devastated by it all. i feel like my life is over. literally. and my friend there from the states, her son comes over...

hell.

wow so depressed and lonely increcible how my mom treats me like im some second rate sloppy seconds. it is so offensive. and then im left with the reality of the void that is my life where friends are concerned. shaking my head i live...

Lily

afternoon heading into moms back yard to sneak a peek shortly then to head home. sort of seeking solitude these days yet achingly lonely i feel like i need a change, but i dont know what that change is or what it looks like let alone how...

argh

i woke up this morning just so frustrated. and sad. the one thing ive always used to cope with the feelings of emptiness i have in my life from the constant rejection and failure that have become pattern because of my disability is gone...

nothing

Morning woke up to some know it all commenting on my blogs. First dum ass I can't take the cats to the local shelter because they are not a no kill for cats. I've been trying to get them up the highway to a no kill and I have no transport. Like I...

at all

Feeling sad tonight. Ezzy got her antibiotics and is doing way better. I'm so glad. I feel lonely and forgotten. I miss my dancing so much lately. Nostalgic. Also frustrated with the lack of support for my cat rescue. No one cares and the problem only...

ponderous

i wonder when a mother cat sees her adult kittens / offspring on the street if she recognizes them as her own and if she wonders, or feels for how they are doing/ managing living their life struggling on the street? interesting to think...

full fledged

omg im officially just so full in the chest of snot and flu :( oof im going to walk to the gym and do my weights and my rowing at least. much more than the walking cardio wise i dunno then tomorrow i have that fuckn hearing thing for the...

does.

omg i have a headache i think ezzy girl is sicky and the antibiotics the vet gave her before are not good on her she gets really bad diarrhea because she is an older gal and it affects the organs. I dont know why beth would have given that to...

polished gold.

when i go to write i find i draw a blank it is like i have so much to say i cant speak. i was like that when my gramma died and was found her house broke in and her nightgown over her head. dead. in the front room i didnt speak...

distance

morning Every time i get a remote lead on a potential job, it goes dead air. I dont know what is happening or why but it is the same repeated theme for me over and over. and i have no idea why it isnt like i talk to them and then they are...

alouette

morning Im so pooped. I need to drag myself to the gym know ill feel better once i go but i really dont want to tell you the truth. Im in the mood for an aimlessly walking day. Already did my free weights and spot work. Got so much cleaning...

change

Just walked in the door from feeding the park house cats. 5:30 and it is still light out. awesome. Now if we could just get rid of winter, make the days longer yet, even better. Soooooo sick of winter. Time to crawl out of the funk. I think im going...

boo to thoughts.com

honestly ive tried it and i still dont like this format whatsoever. do you know that outsiders cannot even read your blog? you type in your own url to look at how your blog looks? and it wont come up it says you arent authorized to see this or some...

wow

evening all well the fuzz called my house today and i have no idea what is going on.very very very stressed out about it. They said they want to set up a "meet" so that doesnt sound good. Isnt that for questioning? yikers i have no idea what...

if it aint broke why fix it?

this is horrible.... i dont like it at all. you cant even find the sign out feature. lol think im gonna have to move my blog now.... shrug we will see ttyl bye for now.

Gym class heroes... love these lyrics : )

and if i can last nearly forty rounds theres no reason you should have your head down 5"2" one hundred and five pounds hailing from rock bottom loserville nothing town Text book version of a kid going nowhere fast and now im yelling...

Paradox

~I have found the paradox that if i love until it hurts then there is no hurt but only more love.~ Mother Theresa  

ignorance

~the highest form of ignorance is when  you reject something you don't know anything about. ~ also the highest form of laziness to believe that which you are told about someone or something in gossip... Josh and margaret! and you shouldnt...

run to you

I know that when you look at me There's so much that you just don't see But if you would only take the time I know in my heart you'd find Oh a girl who's scared sometimes Who isn't always strong Can't you see the hurt in me? I feel so all alone...

Ironic

~Isnt it ironic? We ignore the ones that adore us. Adore the ones that ignore us. love the ones that hurt us and hurt the ones that love us. ~  

river

do your best, and try to deliver if that doesn't work there's always the river.... lol J.J. Evans :) <3