them.

so those little low life pieces of shit did not get evicted they won their case against the landlady even tho theyve had a swat team here. get real. if i did one tenth of what theyve done id be long gone they would have had me face down...

basic needs dont make for much quality of life

morning Listening to bruce hornsby and the range mandolin rain; one of my most personal favorites. Resonates with my soul some how.... I am trying to organize so many things and then i forget etc. bit by bit i get things done tho some...

counted joys

had a pretty rotten day continuation of last night i think anywho i went to moms and worked her out got to work out in the pool by myself. which was spectacular. im thinking our days in the wonderful glorious splendor that is her...

yeowsa

why am i so soreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee omg. no wonder i dont stop cuz when i do i ache from my scalp to the bottoms of my feet literally. in two days im in agony. back to working out tomorrow. cant wait. oof. ive been walking everyday for at...

my prayer

finished my dance AQ yaaaaaaaaaaaaa baby so proud of myself even if no one else notices knows or cares. : ) ya me. i did it no matter what . i did it. so there you go. now, onto laundry lol and walks and prime cuddle time...

see?

blood gushing to my muscles in rest and recovery muscle growth.... is painful lol easier almost for me to keep tearing em down. dont accomplish much gain that way tho anywho.... im tired and not feeling discouraged; sending out...

walk together.

well i wake up with energy and desire to have fun and do things and no where to put it. It is supposed to storm later, but when later who knows. I want to go to the gym and dont at the same time; id rather frankly have some summer time fun. ...

time

hey so depressed anymore everyday every night.... and the time in between. I was meant to go to my dance class on Thursday as i had promised myself i wouldnt quit again as that is usually what i do with everything..... I came home from working...

chuck

omg i feel so sick to my stomach Im hoping that no one moves in next door this weekend, however my gut is telling me otherwise. I have to buckle down and get these last two assignments done tonight and tomorrow. by monday for certain that way i...

give up

Depressed as hell and ready to not bother. I cancelled my therapeutic riding and went swimming instead. No dance no boxing why bother  I don't want to try anymore. Cuz nothing works out anyways. Dancing gyms boxing school counselling etc So why...

nothing.

im officially headed to a breakdown. Im so fn sleep deprived and angry and just fed up and disgusted with my circumstances. i can hardly stop crying i go from crying to wanting to kill someone literally. no exaggeration. eventually i am...

losing my best friend

morning feeling very very very very very lonesome today. I am so tired of not having any friends, and finding it nearly impossible to make any. I am so dependent on my mom and when she hits her crazy switch or thinks im being too clingy she...

discriminating cops

Little pieces of shit from next door were hassling me last night. I come home from walking and the black kid is sitting on the bench across the street from us. He says dont look at me you fuckn cat lady bitch.? i said excuse me i can look any...

too fast.

morning my esmeralda is slowing down; i think she is losing it too; dementia / alzheimers in cats etc. I adopted Esmeralda in 1999 and she was 3 when i got her. :( She has been with me from a young woman to middle aged. I cant even begin...

get er done

wow people are touchy. you cant even ask a question without them biting your face off yesterday i went to moms to workout in the pool and she thinks that means we are "off" for today feel the love. i helped them do yard work too. she...

mortals

havent been feeling very well the last few days. kind of tired and wore down. throat hurts and my ears a bit too. feel like im never getting enough sleep. ya i feel like my lungs are heavy even.... tired. pooped exhausted. I am thinking...

wow.

morning so im fighting with the weepies/ sadness and depression again. I feel kind of disappointed with the course being over....my anxiety and the social context was so stressful and unpleasant most of the time, that i feel like it never even...

buzzin

~ something brewing in the back of my mind.... what about a dance studio or a dance collective like they have in toronto or did when i danced. a studio space with various teachers wtih whom to train.... or a dance fitness studio where a...

Simeon

I have been thinking about Simeon a lot these days. Feeling haunted and thinking I should have done things differently maybe. I have regrets but I knew no better. I loved her more than I love myself. Had I of known I would have done better maybe. I...

between

journeys we are all on a journey every minute of every day one foot in front of the other..... one roll of our wheels location to location constantly moving and dancing through life we are never really still if we are alive and breathing....

safe

just a brief touching base.... so friday night past we had a swat team at our building because the drug dealing pieces of shit on the opposite side of the building that she has newly rented to, were pointing a gun out their front window at people...

sun burned

throat hurts and my face is so sun burnt. Im trying to decide if i want to go to the pool to work out again or to the gym im thinking the gym because im a little over sun exposed. yikes. lol but i love prime real estate time in the pool ...

wow

feeling kind of discouraged. My brother's house got hit from a tornado last night. well correction they were lucky it didnt hit their house. His garage is attached to his house and it ripped the roof right off his garage and into his pool,...