squirrel

My wee squirrel buddy made it. :) gave him his little bed and put one for the Groomer's cat she threw out . Tundra checked it out right away. :) gnite my little squirrel buddy. Happy Valentine's day Cuz I love him. Gnite

viable option

was lying in bed last night crying myself to sleep thought about the fact that no one would ever want to date me honestly would you ever date someone that was disabled let alone with mental illness? I might have cognitive impairment when i am...

no great loss

nothing hurts more than when people talk around and down to you my family has done this to me for years and i witness it at the therapeutic riding not only where im concerned but also where the other clients are concerned. You say alot when...

other

i had a miserable day absolutely awful i knew from the minute i burned my toast this morning it wasnt going to go well as that is how my days go i "know" when it is going to be an off one. and off it was at least it was gorgeous out...

fickle

~ Horses are funny. they have these really moody personalities and poker faces.....  you cant really read or predict them they remind me of some people i know. But anyways, i had a good time again at the horse farm.... When we ride out there...

stem to stern

I have horses today!! wooo hooo :) I couldnt sleep worth a crap and now this morning im pooped. gotta hate when that happens. yesterday i was talking to tami on the phone and i could smell pickle juice i was like is someone...

determined and type-os?

where did this day go? right out the poop shoot i did a lot of cleaning yesterday so that when im ready to move it will be less to do. feeling pretty determined about that these days my friend from the dance department at Waterloo...

wait and see

went to my moms and worked her out she never once asked me a thing about my week about how i was what was new nothing nada. Im not going to offer her shit anymore if she cant be bothered or interested enough to ask me herself then...

isnt.

last night i cried myself to sleep when i think of all the attempts and fails ive had in my 40+ years it is enough to bring you to your knees or a hospital ward. some man on the crisis line elsewhere because the folks in windsor wont talk to me...

final curtain?

Esmeralda is not well at all Vet appointment on Friday. Soonest she is available. I've been with Beth for Ezzy girl all the way So if it is her curtain call Same cast The rest of my cats will go in the city to a new vet. They...

help

All this shit with the job and the counseling makes me feel small rejected and awful about myself. I shouldn't be made to feel that way when I go Or call For help

my buddies

Of course I went and fed. Everyone showed but Mr. Belvedere. Clover Toby Peanuts Carmen and the baby, Cassidy..her leg is almost fully healed!. Tundra Cookie Spirit Big boy Colette Tulah Squirrel Jack Ramsey Romeo and Sugar bear.... Moon pie haven't...

sore lungs

hey my lungs are hurting me again i hope im not getting pneumonia AGAIN shaking my head. im wiped out too i dont even want to go out in the cold and feed kitties. i went to the gym after all today i was upset about talking to...

wallow

Today is Holly's my ex gf s birthday. She turns 51. Tried to wish her happy birthday texted her She is miserable Went and sat at her moms grave all day. What can i say or do She is hell bent to wallow

people

I can't believe how ignorant and unfair they are. I'm thinking of going to the human rights tribunal about some. I'm frankly sick of being abused. Seriously. People fuckn make me sick. And then I go to counseling and she insults me saying no one...

alone

im feeling totally and completely depressed from going to see this counsellor yesterday and today im working mom out early which is fine with me because i have dishes to do piled high and another load of laundry; hoodies and sweaters all the...

try

my intercostal muscles are just screaming so i went and met with my new counselor today and i wonder how is counselling even good for anyone anyway it is such a power imbalance. and you go in to a total stranger, and you have to puke up...

best cat

so im walking feeding my cats in my hat in my pic here that my friend Kristy knitted for me last year to wear when it is cold to feed my cats outside. some knob guy started screaming at me that i looked like a terrorist and was threatening me...

for granted

morning So today is my first and only day off this week.... she has me in everyday, which is WAY too much. Three times a week, ten to fifteen hours per week, preferrably on a regular schedule, is ideal for me. go in do what is expected of me,...

new friends.

omg when i dont exercise? i am in pain rather than the other way around the minute i stop it is agonizing pain like blood gorges every square cell.. or round lol ouchhhhhhh first day without working out in a very long while actually...

pretty princess

I think the reason our pets mean so much to us and we love them so much is they allow our inner child to come out and they offer it much healing through unconditional love hugs and acceptance innocence time spent where they...

drugs

o ya i found a red skull pill of ecstasy at the front door to my apartment building today on the inside of it by our welcome mat so stupid that little toddler next door would have stuffed that in his mouth thinking it was a candy and or...

free

i feel pretty down tonight i hate where im at i feel stuck; when youre a kid you are prisoner of your circumstances; when you become older and are limited you are also; but when youre an adult you should be able to create the life you want for...

my best girl

Ezzy girl is not doing well this morning. she projectile vomitted again so im going to reconstitute her last bottle of antibiotics i have ive been giving her her anti parasite stuff ( all natural powder) she seemed to have improved...

November 1st

My two cats were just going at it fur flying i hate that my gym doesnt open until late on sundays drives me around the bend frankly speaking of which i have to pay for a fuckn membership today and if i end up moving in the next two weeks...