revocation

morning so i ran on my treadmill and my mom has been texting me like an asshole since like 830 am yet she would have my head in a vice if i did the same to her. she has one set of rules for her and another for me like im her subordinate ...

alone

I cant stand the loneliness anymore. seriously i dont think i can do this much longer.... i miss my esmeralda like there are no words to describe. it is like the entire bottom of my little world has crashed out and vanished. i feel lost...

do over

My sadness and grief cannot bear it for missing my Ezzy girl. and the fall is always naturally hard on my spirit to begin with fills me with melancholy and sadness the time of year my mom left my dad and we left the farm for good never...

Ezzy girl

For the first time since you passed i unabashedly bawled my eyes out last night until i fell asleep.   I had a dream about Savoy Howe. and she was tethered in a chair. she couldnt move her arms hands legs she was consious and eyes...

legacy of love

Not feeling well today wasnt feeling very well yesterday either to tell you the truth went to the gym and didnt do much extravagent just a basic work out but when i came home i was tanked full out i fell asleep in the afternoon and was in...

Jess

Jessica has passed away today. August 22, 3:07 pm

will

I have such a bad headache.... My step sister Jessica was moved to hospice this morning.... so i am very sad to hear about that. My mom and step dad have cancelled their camping trip which i dont really understand why because they only go a...

human

I wonder if anyone even sees me or thinks of me i wonder if anyone sees that i try to put good into the world in my own annonymous way with feeding the cats loving and tending to them as much as i am able.   i wonder if i...

life sustaining

morning falls so hard missing her it doesnt seem real; i find myself looking for her; calling for her and looking for her still in the night. when im in the shower when i come home at night when im on the treadmill always looking for her...

alone

i miss you unbearably my little friend my bed has become even more my enemy not only with the monsters that originally resided under it that you soothed the edges off of but now haunted by the memory of you being there with me and being...

never

my entire routine has been imploded, and the bottom of my world as we know it has fallen out. You figure i lost my gym, which is my regular routine, go to, how i spend my days, filler coping strategy etc. I lost my best friend, partner, therapy...

too much

My Esmeralda had to leave me, on July 27th 2016. I had to have her put to sleep because she had developed jaw cancer, and it took her in less than a month. It was a mass on her jaw and it went up and over her cheek bone into her orbital socket...

earth

Being disabled isnt a very easy experience. Life is hard enough for everyone in different ways. add the dimension of being disabled to the mix, and it adds a special layer of difficulty that the masses tend to be rather clueless of. add a...

strong enough

I dont think i can do this i dont think i can make it through losing my Ezzy girl. She wont eat tonight even..... she is leaving me.... and i dont think im strong enough to make it through. good God help me.  

sars !

My lungs are suddenly killing me something severe. My throat is hurting me too some what i often get pneumonia this time of year with the pool opening and legionaires disease in a/cs all i know it is severe and acute. and im having a hard...

done

I just feel hopeless anymore if i thought things had a possibility of getting better maybe i wouldnt feel so despairing but i dont have the ability to make things better. that is what my disability causes. even with interpersonal...

sore

I am so sore it is ridiculous. Mr midget stomps a lot is back from camping.  They weren't missed. My body but namely my feet are aching. My prayer card is missing from the kitchen and it makes me upset as my aunt bought that for me from...

clown

i suggest that you stop harassing me after 8 years or ill continue to post this shit to the moon and back or you can grow up and not harass and abuse women that you were paid to service. and i already traced the phone call from last night ...

duh

if you call/ text my house again at 1:30 am you wont have to wait to be struck   ill mother fuckn take you out and again stupid bitch in your words "watch your back" because you wont even know its me. duh

strike

Don't threaten me sweets Cuz I can strike when you least expect it And better still You won't even know it is me But trust me It will be me Might not be today might be tomorrow Might be ten years from now But it will be me.

Tulu

Ive been talking to this girl at the gym for a while and think I might be making a new friend :-)   Her name is tulu and she's from Nigeria. She studies biology and chemistry and talks to me often about her mom and dad and how her mom is always...